This is a piece that I had composed for Holly on Instagram. I’ve hinted at her recent health issues in several blog posts, but have yet to fully explain just what is the matter. Rather than rewriting it for you today and having to relive the same raw emotions once again, I’ve made the decision to post it here. Nothing has yet changed, and I feel as if I can say no more about the situation. This is what I wrote one week ago.
“We’ve been through a lot with our dog, Holly. Four years ago, we rescued her from the SPCA in Edmonton, Alberta. She was found wandering the streets, heavily pregnant, and in the middle of winter. No one ever claimed her. We went into the shelter not expecting to fall in love, but after seeing Holly shivering in the corner of a room, while being kept away from her litter of puppies, we knew that our lives would never be the same. She was losing her hair and was severely underweight, but within a few months she was a fit and healthy dog, or so we thought. Soon after adopting her, we noticed an ulcer in her eye. It turns out that Holly’s eyes cannot produce tears. After four years of different medications, numerous vet visits, and most recently a surgery to correct the problem, it appeared as if she would finally be able to lead a ‘normal’ life. Holly will be 10 years old. However, life will not let her catch a break. Last week we were told that Holly has cancer. Now, we must weigh our options and ultimately decide how many more surgeries and procedures we will subject her to. The line between preserving your pet’s life for yourself or for them is thin. If only they could speak and tell us exactly what to do. If nothing else, we know that Holly is a fighter, and that eventually she will help us come to the right decision, if not through human words, but through her own form of language that only dog owners grow to understand. While owning her has never been easy, if I didn’t have her love or the privilege of ever knowing her, the last four years of my own life would have been so much more meaningless. So, Holly Golightly, this one is for you.”